Life is beautiful ,even when blurry

ImageLife is beautiful, even when ,through my eyes at least, it gets a little blurry at times.Today, the air outside is crisp and clear and sun is shining, the birds singing and all is right with my world. I live for these moments, when life is good and clear and happy because they make the “blurry times” easier to find my way out of. I know some don’t understand me and that’s okay but I’m me and I like me and I do understand why I am like I am. I know the “backstories” to my rants and vents and sometimes, that is all that is needed to open my eyes to the sheer amount of good that surrounds me. I write these things down in order to release them from my soul. Harsh words,anger, secrets grow more powerful hidden away and only lose their power when brought out in the light . Saying something just to hurt or cause sadness is wrong but so is allowing a hurt to fester and grow when open, honest discussion can lance it and heal the pain.Misunderstandings are a part of life but if we talk about them, we can fix the wrong and reap the reward of understanding. I had someone I loved very much think that I was mad at them because I hadn’t called them  but it wasn’t anger, it was almost overwhelming sadness  because I knew what was coming and didn’t want to share my pain and cause more but I did anyway because I wasn’t open and honest. We are human and prone to mistakes and sometimes I am so very human but I love  with all my heart.

Pieces…of me…of life

ImageAnd my earlier piece was not sweet but isn’t it amazing how the love of  a small child and their innocent joy in life can renew one’s spirit and enable the ongoing struggle against the bumps in the road of life? Small children don’t leap to judgement or misunderstandings, they just know they are loved and that rubber piggies are the best toy a “nanny” could buy, especially when they can chew on them! I love my job ,”it” is a daily reminder that although my life isn’t perfect , I do have love and in it’s purest form and all I have to do to get it is to give it

Love- a short poem

ImageI  just want love

Real true love

That stands the test of time

That defeats all the odds against it

That grows stronger with each passing year

And becomes sweeter

That fills my heart to overflowing

And surrounds me with the feeling of safe harbor and home

can I touch the sky

ImageCan I touch the sky

Ride the breezes wafting across the new grasses

Capture the birdsong 

Soak up the warm rays of sun melting the last of the winter snow

Throw my hands up and shut for joy that new life has returned

Oh the sounds and scents of spring are here and the cold heart of winter

Gives way to new exuberance of spring

Shaking off the groggy sleep of winter

Nature and mankind begin again